Mania
Walking past those busy streets
You whisper, drawing me into your grasp
My body is a haunted house
Where roots reach out like fingers
That whispers trailing my steps
Then you touch me
Was it only me who you touched
Or you brush past other sleeves
It was this chaos that made you beautiful
Ayman Terro
Bipolar
We walk around that earth holding hands
I look and breath as you
In the darkness of my wonderland
Would you bring to light the best of me
Or leave behind the worst bits of me that I seek to leave behind
I am wrapped within my own nest
My body apologizes to my own body
Not sure if it accepts
One shade more, one ray the less
It was this chaos that made you beautiful
Ayman Terro
Schizophrenia
The voices I hear are words that can’t describe the way I feel
When I look into your eyes
I hear silent cries
Telling me to come to see the world of lost reality
I try not to see those things
But mind without mind
Real darkness without light
You are a hope against a hope
The mindless mind
Moving from thought to thought
Thoughts are quite but never quite silenced
They find a reason to wake
Take a breath again and crawl back to my ear
But when you reach the end
It is just the start
It was this chaos that made you beautiful
Ayman Terro
ADHD
Reckless is that mind
Twisting, turning and churning winds
That continues without remorse
Always moving, can’t sit still
The violent spin sleeps in
It leads me to a nest of snore cold command
Topped off with light to fill empty parts
Showing off its great power
Sometimes I ask
Of your mercy, leave me there
Nor tell them where to find me
Then a rare blossom is shown
Where happiness is thrown
And only sadness is known
It was this chaos that made you beautiful
Ayman Terro
Anxiety
Watch me claw at my inside
Inhaling a deep breath
Chill spurring truth that drizzles from my mouth as exhaling
This abyss in my mind thriving in that endless labyrinth of library
But now all I have are frigid and vexed sheets
Taunting me in that fear of ink
That creeps up in all my thoughts
To eat through to resolution
But despair rhyme in my eyes with a fidget feet
My heart rebels and confined to rules within the cage of my chest
Waiting on its knees to be set free
Just to know that freedom isn’t a lie
It was this chaos that made you beautiful
Ayman Terro
Depression
When the grey cloud rolls
My mind dives into treacherous waters
Silently creeps with a sweet purr slipped over me
With delirious desire to gently suffocate me
Weights tied to my feet sinking upon the ocean foam
Trying to claw my way up and out
If I could only end it all
It was this chaos that made you beautiful
Ayman Terro
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
The eye leads and the mind follows
Never says done
When temptation is tied to a sacred oath for a change
My obstinate brain withstands it
Obsessively, I strive strongly on
Compulsively, I must disheartenedly obey
Disorderly, as the play smolders benignly
It all started with a thought
Germinated into lines
Until leaves sprout
Thorny and wild
Insistent and obsessed
Crowned with a cling
That cannot be argued but tamed
To hold me true
Without belief in pain
It is this chaos that made you beautiful
Ayman Terro
Panic Attack
A lost piece of work
That takes over my throat
Claws tight like cloak of death
With no remorse and empathy of loss
Murmuring syllables
Blossoming there in my throat
Like a harrowing imposter
Losing my grip on reality
Stream of tears fill my eyes
An infinity of darkness racing my heart
This terror will hiss and claw
Lying in joyous songs
Beneath your awe
Numbness invade
Until this peace hits with depths of silent
Filled with promise and repose
It is this chaos that made you beautiful
Ayman Terro